Here I REALLY go.

Do you loooove that I start, stop with my goals! Sheesh! What does it take to get motivated? Um... going to see family usually helps, especially when I know a family photo is coming up. Argh. Curse my flabby arms!

But I have a plan. I tried using our tread mill in the mornings. I got a whole whopping 6 minutes in before both boys were putting their fingers on the tread mill. Then I tried during the boys' nap time... I quickly found that I'm not motivated at that hour, because that is also MY nap time....

So we are looking at finances to see if we can get a single YMCA membership. Can I just say how incredibly awesome the YMCA is? I literally viewed it as no more than a cheesy, overplayed (but-everyone-still-loves-it) type song. They have child care. Now I expected a gymnasium full of chaos. But no, they have a schedule inclusive of free play, craft, story time, out door time, gym time... it's amazing, and other than the same parting sorry that precedes Nursery, they really seem to love it. And it comes HIGHLY recommended by several trustworthy mom's from church. So I drop off the kids for an hour, and work out. I felt like a whole new woman! I'm doing the 5 day free trial. We are talking about finances tonight to see if we can make it happen.

But I feel a whole new motivation, now that I can get exercise!

Yesterday's meals: (+ 1hr cycling class that totally kicked my rear)
small bowl of oatmeal
handful of almonds
snap peas, cucumber and hummus
apple
salmon, rice and steamed broccoli
No snacks after 7pm

Today so far: (+1hr on the elliptical machine)
yogurt and cereal (usually a no-no, but we are out of food - today is grocery day)
handful of almonds
sandwich that Bill brought home from work (again, no other food... I need to go shopping when the boy's wake up!)
and two bite sized Snickers (OK, I crumbled when Will wouldn't go potty and then they were still in my hand...)

Anyway, we're having wheat pasta and my super-veggie-packed pasta sauce for dinner tonight (super easy to make and sooooo yummy) And then I think that's it for the day - maybe an apple after grocery shopping because I love apples :)

So the goal isn't to lose weight, because no matter what the number always stays the same (128-130). the Goal is to get the fat gone-- lose the inches, and get the muscle back. I've got two weeks until Thanksgiving. That's a good deadline for now.